among a LONG list of moral and functional problems, animusphere's breaking so many rules that would get him in more hot water than you can even imagine with the other eleven of us
but are you actually telling me you hold contracts with multiple servants
Olga-Marie was the one running Chaldea by the time I got there, but I guess I don't know if she changed anything about how they found people or kept how it was before.
There's also a possibility that a certain Doctor may have in some way been involved, or at least anticipated things, but Ritsuka has no way of knowing that.
And I don't know if I really count as a mage, since I can't even do magecraft on my own. So technically, I guess?
It means I wouldn't be able to learn much even if I tried, especially since I'm not that smart about stuff like that as you are.
I was still curious for a while, but now I know a little about how hard that stuff really is, so it probably wouldn't be worth it even if there was time to try to learn.
It's not about what magecraft one can utilize--well, it is to a point, but that isn't what I mean right now.
It takes more than skill to stand beside a Servant. Your average nobility can't understand what it is to work for every tiny step of advancement taken; they've never felt the uncertainty of their future or required the willpower to push beyond it in the face of death. Having been born powerful makes one arrogant, and you know what they say about pride and a fall. The fact that you lack what others take for granted and still fight with no thought for the disparity takes more courage than the Association could even comprehend.
Ordinary mages would despise you. They'd call you a failure and brush you aside like you were no better than trash, of that I'm afraid you can be certain. But they don't realize that it takes immeasurable resolve and strength to compensate for what one lacks than it does to be born talented. You use Mystic Codes to cast what they likely have engraved in their Crest and Circuits, and in doing so likely burn a fraction of the energy as well as carry a wider range of skills depending on what those uniforms have built into them. It's brilliant, actually.
My predecessor once told me that it was juvenile fantasy to believe the world of mages could be one where effort could equal or surpass inherited strength. But knowing someone like you exists, that you're willing to fight even in spite of everything--honestly, that's amazing. I'm only sorry you've had to do so much at your age; if I'd met you in the Clock Tower, you would have been an ideal candidate for my class.
I'm proud of you, Ritsuka. You're really something.
There's definitely a... delay, before Ritsuka responds. One decidedly longer than it'd simply take to read all that, or even to reread just to make sure one read it right the first time.
It's probably convenient for her that this is all just in text; there's no need to worry about anyone seeing or hearing her right now.
It never does. That's the drawback, really--because we can't do much, or because we use different methods for a similar result, it never feels like enough.
But if the result is the same, if you manage to fight and survive even with what little power you have, that's still an accomplishment whether you did it alone or with help.
I'm a knight. I never say anything unless I mean it.
Besides, I've been living as a mage with no real strength for years. I know exactly how it feels, and how to circumvent what failings can be circumvented.
I didn't know either, until it was way too late to back out. So if I can support people as reckless as I was, that's a decent way to use a teaching career as far as I'm concerned.
You don't have to think of yourself as one. Frankly I wouldn't if I had the option, 'real mages' are god awful. But for what it's worth, I'd bet my title that you could keep up with any of them.
Do you think that's really a good idea? I mean, I probably wouldn't be very good at it anyway, and don't you already have other classes you teach here?
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are you not from a mage family?
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Does that matter?
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but are you actually telling me you hold contracts with multiple servants
and you're a first-generation mage
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There's also a possibility that a certain Doctor may have in some way been involved, or at least anticipated things, but Ritsuka has no way of knowing that.
And I don't know if I really count as a mage, since I can't even do magecraft on my own. So technically, I guess?
... Someone is possibly missing the point here.
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gandr? bounded fields? memory manipulation?
how many circuits do you have
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But oh, look, a question she actually has a good answer for, thanks to Waver's own counterpart!
The version of you that I met said mine were similar to his, I think?
In other words, pretty low tier. And unlike Waver, Ritsuka does not have the cleverness and single-minded focus to make up for that with sheer study.
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did he tell you what that MEANT
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I was still curious for a while, but now I know a little about how hard that stuff really is, so it probably wouldn't be worth it even if there was time to try to learn.
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i was assuming you had far more natural ability than i do, but this is like telling me you walked cross-country exclusively on your hands.
you're one hell of a talent, fujimaru.
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It takes more than skill to stand beside a Servant. Your average nobility can't understand what it is to work for every tiny step of advancement taken; they've never felt the uncertainty of their future or required the willpower to push beyond it in the face of death. Having been born powerful makes one arrogant, and you know what they say about pride and a fall. The fact that you lack what others take for granted and still fight with no thought for the disparity takes more courage than the Association could even comprehend.
Ordinary mages would despise you. They'd call you a failure and brush you aside like you were no better than trash, of that I'm afraid you can be certain. But they don't realize that it takes immeasurable resolve and strength to compensate for what one lacks than it does to be born talented. You use Mystic Codes to cast what they likely have engraved in their Crest and Circuits, and in doing so likely burn a fraction of the energy as well as carry a wider range of skills depending on what those uniforms have built into them. It's brilliant, actually.
My predecessor once told me that it was juvenile fantasy to believe the world of mages could be one where effort could equal or surpass inherited strength. But knowing someone like you exists, that you're willing to fight even in spite of everything--honestly, that's amazing. I'm only sorry you've had to do so much at your age; if I'd met you in the Clock Tower, you would have been an ideal candidate for my class.
I'm proud of you, Ritsuka. You're really something.
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It's probably convenient for her that this is all just in text; there's no need to worry about anyone seeing or hearing her right now.
I
I don't know what to say to that.
Sorry.
But thank you.
... She might still need another moment.
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The Clock Tower should be a place where people like that can thrive, if they want to study there. Lack of natural talent doesn't mean a lack of worth.
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I mean
I'm just surprised, I guess?
I didn't think I was doing anything special because there's always been so many people helping me. The staff at Chaldea, the Servants, Mash,
It doesn't feel like I did that much.
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But if the result is the same, if you manage to fight and survive even with what little power you have, that's still an accomplishment whether you did it alone or with help.
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but you really meant all you said before, huh
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Besides, I've been living as a mage with no real strength for years. I know exactly how it feels, and how to circumvent what failings can be circumvented.
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I guess I just never really thought of myself as a real mage, even if that's technically what I've been called. But it's
I don't know, nice? for you to say all that.
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You don't have to think of yourself as one. Frankly I wouldn't if I had the option, 'real mages' are god awful. But for what it's worth, I'd bet my title that you could keep up with any of them.
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But I don't mind being called a mage. It just seems a little strange when I don't even know any magecraft.
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If you ever want to try learning the most basic of basic abilities, my door's always open.
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